Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: You don't give up.
I read this quote yesterday and smiled grimly to myself, because it pretty much pins down  how I'm feeling at the moment. If I had to draw a picture of how I feel there'd be a cartoon character hanging by one fingernail to the side of a cliff while  a bunch of coyotes waited at the bottom (with a few buzzards circling in the sky  too - just for good measure). 
OK, a bit dramatic - and I'm not so sure  buzzards can even fly - but I'm sure you get my drift.  I'm just hanging in there; stubbornly hoping, and not giving up.
This meditation caper aint easy!  True, there are  occasional moments of insight and peace, but I'm spending an awful lot of time  just feeling pain, feeling distress, feeling despair, feeling hopelesness. Just  to make life a little bit harder for myself I'm also feeling that if I was a  better meditator, if I just 'got this', then I wouldn't be feeling all  this...this...CRAP!
So, it's good to come across quotes like the one  above.  I just hope my stubborness will see me through. 'One more breath, just  one more breath...'
An hour later... 
Well! Waddaya know?!  Buzzards can fly  - and here's one doing it...
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